time

.. seems to be passing so fast that soon the  first quarter of the year is going to coming to an end.

Often or not I have this feel that life is so so monotonous, wake up -> work -> home -> sleep, but then again I know.. its part & parcel of life rito? Its perfectly normal & what else should I ask for when I wake up each morning with my loved ones all around me but I simply cant help feeling such that I rather more excitement springs up in my life.. the next question would be.. what excitement I expect??  & I bet Im definitely not the only one feeling such. Have been witnessing so many broken relationshoips lately, some made up & lived happily ever after but some unfortunate ones are trying to bury the past & pray that everything is just a terrifying nightmare.. the once so called holy marriage vow.. its indeed disheartening to know that people out there do forget about their marriage vow, their promise, their dreams & many more  things which are shared between each other when they fell head over heels during the peak of their relationship, the time they spent together during courtship, the companionship they shared together as a couple, the excitement when it comes to the big wedding day, the thrill when they both walk down the aisle with smiles & people addressing you as Mr & Mrs so & so.. I simply do not understand why some people can use stupid reasons like (1) we are not compaitable (2)  I fell for someone else (3) you control me too much till I cant breathe & one of the 1001 most common reason (4) I do not love you anymore *gasp* WHY they do not list down all these possiblities before they decided to sign on the marriage cert & having to sign on the dotted line on the oh-so-famous separation deed?… (1) we are not compaitable –> but yet can live together for years? (2)  I fell for someone else –> your door to your inner heart was always opened since day one i suppose? if not how can anyone just enter like that? (3) you control me too much till I cant breathe –> but if I show no concern, will you in return complained that I do not bother about you?? (4) I do not love you anymore –> you seriously know what is called LOVE? its not a simple four letter word.. there is much more contained in there.

When you really love a person, you will stay with him/her till your last breathe even if you know that you both are no longer sharing the same common interests, even when you both stop communicating as much as before, even he/she does things which will make you go fuming mad but you will simply forgive him & definitely there are much more longer list which will take me 1256973243 hours to list down all.. In reality, I have learnt from others that feelings for that someone special do & might change but ultimately it is also should be yourself controlling your own emotions & feels and not the other way round.. Its going to be a super duper long debate if I will to continue here.. Im ending my venting post right here *full stop*

p/s: to my dear friend, I do hope some day some how you will be able to wake up from that horrible nightmare of yours & find the one whom really treasure & love you as much as what you give.. time changes all the time & so do people.. hope time will ease away the pain if it cant heal your wound. Take care till we meet again. Ciao.